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my newly discovered baby sister<3

ok honestly at first when hearing about her i was full of resentment like honestly but i just talked to her and she is thee most sweetest thing like she made everything better she asked me what she wanted for my birthday and i told her all i wanted was a big hug! haha she was saving her allowance for me and i was like omgahh!! haha don’t do that when i hung up tears started streaming down my face i love her sooo much i can’t wait to see her lol i’ve always wanted a little sis and when i get right i promise i’m gonna spoil the shit out of her! ;]]]]

ok ummmm yahhh<3

lately alot of people have been rubbing me thee wrong way like honestly people can be so rude and act so disgusting like i’ve come to the conclusion that im a hippie<3 thee only language i speak is peace i don’t like drama all i wanna do is have fun, meet as many new people as possible and just expand my life but its so hard when most of the people around me just believe in thee complete opposite i feel so restricted and i don’t like it i wanna explore new things i can’t stick to the same routine forever or for to long its just not my style i wanna meet new people do new things merge all of my friendships into one big sexy one i just want peace you knoe!?! how the freak do i do that without cutting people off or hurting peoples feelings because like if your not willing to share my ideas then i’m gonna have to peace out on you because i wanna fly and you just wanna walk around in a circle thats not cool dude like seriously i’m so lost and confused and annoyed i just wanna do my thing and i don’t care what anybody thinks! can i go through life with that mentally ? can i is it possible ? grrrrr theres so many negative people in my life i wanna fix them so bad but they don’t wanna change what do i do ahhhh i’m so lost i knoe my disk is kinda scratched at the moment but damn!!! how the freak did this even happen ??? AHHHH I WANNA SCREAM!

wooooooooow</3

things are like a complete mess right now, i feel like i can’t trust anybody, i feel like i dunno who my real friends are, and i feel i just needa re-evaluate a whole lot of things starting with every single one of my friends excluding thee bestie<3 alot of things have changed in the past year and i dunno if its my disease but like i feel like everyones out to get me  : / i feel like im being used, and i feel i have absolutely no one to talk to about my innermost personal experiences but myself like shouldn’t you have at least one person you can go to? just one? i feel like i have NO ONE and  that hurts me from the core of my heart it hurts me that IM GONNA HAVE TO FUCKIN PAY SOMEBODY TO LISTEN TO ME BECAUSE NOBODY ELSE WILL! 

HOW DARE YOU SAY THAT! when i gave you everything and never asked for anything in return your so fucking senseless you had it right in front of you but you lost it for good your pride got in the waayyy~! IM DONE WITH ALL GUYS!!! UNTIL I MOVE TO NY :]…..OH IM SORRY I MEAN FORGIVE ME I WAS SO SELFISH YOU DESERVE SO MUCH BETTER -_-

Sarina is very excited to see everybody today :]]]]